My Friend My Journal

 “You cannot always control what goes on outside, but you can always control what goes on inside.”

—Wayne Dyer

I struggle with expressing my emotions, especially when it comes to my anxiety.  Justin will ask me "what is going on? What is causing my anxiety?"  To be honest in the moment my answer is usually I don't know.  Which is true, in the moment I am so wrap up in feel anxious that I can not even think about what is causing it, let alone trying to figure out what I can do to help it.  In that moment it is a whirlwind of emotions that I am not able to focus on one particular part of it. 

Even though I have great people in my life that would listen and help me through my anxiety, I find I benefit more through written word.  I am able to gather my thoughts up in quietness and sort them out for myself.  Figure out what is triggering the moment.  My journal has become my friend for this.  A private space to just let myself ramble and figure out what is going on in my head.  A place I don't feel like I have to sensor myself.  No worries of judgement or feeling what I wrote would be judged.  Well it might be judged by me but no one else. Where I just let the words flow from me and on to the paper. 

Usually I just go with what is on my mind, but I think for November I am going to change it up a bit. Along with how I usually journal, I thought I would start to do some prompts for journaling. Maybe it will get my brain to think differently.  Maybe I will do some of the prompts on here as well.  To get my creative juices flowing.   I want to get more creative and finds some new ways of expressing myself.

Hilary