Update

I have not been feel so go for a little while now.  No energy, every time I eat I feel sick, doesn't matter what I eat.  I can feel it in my body every day.   I will come home from work and have nothing left in me, my body just feels heavy.  My doctors appointment this past week just confirms something is not right. I am gaining weight again which means something isn't working properly again.  I know most people will read this and think oh if you just eat better or don't eat as much you should be good.  But that is the thing I usually can only stomach one meal a day.  If I am lucky two.  Which I know that doesn't fuel my body properly but I have no desire to eat.  

So what next?  How am I going to "fix" this?  To be honest I don't know.  I am not even sure where to start right now.  I have to get blood work done to see if there is anything else.  But here is the thing this is nothing new.  This is the dance me and my body have done since... well as long as I can remember.  The dance of yes I will feel healthy for a bit, but still over weight and then my body will just crash.  There is no difference on what I am doing.  Just my body will be like I am done.  Usually I will have a plan but this time I don't. I don't know where to start or where to go for help. 

I just feel loss. 

Hilary